Morning, 28th day of July, Monday

Last night forced myself to act like nothing has happened... I guess he doesn't know how I feel.
Everything are still like just happened few seconds ago ... Saturday, Sunday... Last night sleeping on a wet pillow ... dream of him.... Guess what? in that dream, he walking away with the one he love, not me... he dump me away .. and said something horrible to me.. " I don't love you ! It's a lie!" It was indeed a "sweet dreams" .....

27th day of July, Sunday

Yesterday, hugging my teddy bear.. crying. 1 bread for breakfast, cold orange juice for lunch.. coughing.. air for dinner, being forced to drink hot chocolate for supper, because im shivering..
Everybody feel bad because they cant eat, hungry. I feel good and happy because not eating .. Today woke up at 10 something... feeling like crap! No breakfast... After shower, get dressed, went to church...

Sitting inside such beautiful and comfortable church, listening to choir singing, pastor talking ... my shallow eye.. full of tears.. makes my vision blurry.. suddenly, i can see everything clear again... it was, my tears flow out.. drop by drop...... uncontrolable. I have to wipe them secretly, silently..... I tried to look upwards but it didn't work.. at all... I don't know why.......

Went to violin class at 4:30pm. Same time with him .. I'm happy to see him, but in the mean time, I'm feel kind of sad, angry... I din't talk to him.. din't look at him in the eyes .. When he is leaving, I actually don't want him to leave.... but .. what to do.. Maybe he got other things to do, so .. I let him go .. Watching him walking away with tons of books and his new violin...

Since he is so worried .. i will act to be strong in front of him... keep all things inside, so he will be less worrying .......

no mood #1

no mood at all at school. now hands shaking like phone ringing in silent mode.. suddenly wanna cry. felt so pressure ...

Friday, 18 July 2008

Today.. so tired... Came back from school, take off shoes, put down bag, shower, lunch, doing homework, fell asleep.

When wake up already 8 something. Shower again, dinner, sleep again .......... Although I missed him all day long, but my lazy eyes keep closing .. I wake up again , this time almost 11. He sent me a sms, saying he going to sleep already..... Oh well.. there's always tomorrow..

cold cold ...

This afternoon raining so heavily, now still very cold leh ... makes me think back those days..
People are busy finding shelter while I am busy playing with raindrops ... hahaha~ Now no more lo.. nobody teman me also...

I fell asleep when it was raining.. sigh ~ so tired ! Everyday go to school, doing the same thing. Learning, answering questions, dreaming, doing homeworks.. zzzzz ~ Today my friend sick lo, vomit and stomach ache.. Plus, her bus left her.. So my dad fetch us home ...

No biology class today ... teacher don't know go where, maybe go check up or something. Somehow I feel happy whenever there's no bio class... zzz ~ my dream of being a forensic ... cannot come true already if my bio results are so chammm ! =(

And today we get free The Star newspaper.. Just a part of it, and since it's so boring in Maths' class, I draw on the newspaper, I colour the big bold white words ..... and suddenly, "Ong Wan Lin!" Teacher called me. I thought he is going to scold me for drawing newspapers, but actually he just want to give me back my exercise book... =x So... I continued drawing ~ muahahaha ~~~

Just now my mum called, say her car sick already ~ , engine cannot start ~ she said she heard her engine coughing, sneezing, shivering , and .. and.. and .. and .. coughing and coughing and coughing .. Papa now going to jeti to wait her .. I guess the car will be staying at the island for 1 night.. I'm gonna miss that car ~ *sniff*

changed

The assembly of SMKPR ~ a 1 hour time that you can't talk, if got caught have to read prayers infront of all students !! A voice come from nowhere : *shhhhh !! diam la*

=____=!

Today changed some rules already lor, after assembly every morning, prefects have to stand in front and back of a line to make sure students passed the 'checkpoints' zzzzz....... even jacket also cannot wear liao, like this cold until become ice also nevermind lu ~ At bm class my friend and I busy doing last week's homeworks, din't listen to teacher at all.. hahaha ~~~ Today Lina brought her camera to take pictures with teachers that come for practical ones.. This Friday is their last day here lor.. so, whole class took pictures together ... but still want us to give other photos of ourselves.. haih ~

I got my new scout pants, ok ok loh .. still better than nothing ma hor ~ and I bought some t-shirts and a long pants.. nice also lo..

He now sleeping lor, hope later he can finish his work faster then sleep lor ... I just now pack finish my bag only found out that summary must pass up tomorrow .. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

Time to use my brain lo ~

a nice weather

Today ~ Sunday ~ the day I go to church with my parents and grandmother .. Usually after church the sun will be baking all of us, but today it seems like the sun is busy baking other places.. and cloudy ~ good chance to look at clouds and sky ^^

Today din't sms him o.. give him peacefully tuition for one day ba ~ hahaha

I look at monitor , daydreaming .. then suddenly 6 pm already ~ I suddenly feel so happy, don't know why, maybe because its time to play my violin ~ I tried to play violin while walking, not bad, out of tune little bit ... and I tried to memorise some songs ~ I can play minuet 2 while walking, I shall practice with other songs.. hahahaha ~!!

Till night, I mean , now, he still doing his moral things, and he asked me if I want to sleep early or not.. I said no, and I told him I got this and that to do, bla bla bla, actually I just want teman him lo .. Hope he won't angryy .. Don't angry lo mister tan ~~ ^^

Our first time

Today o, he invite me to go to the concert at auto city .. I'm quite nervous .. hehe .. His parents fetched us there.. There got many people lor, want find a place to eat also hard.. but we still somehow managed to found a place to sit ^^

He paid for my ice-cream , hehe actually I also paiseh .. After eating, we went in to the concert there, we both can only see the big screen from behind.. Standing for awhile, then we walk around and around and around .. He very cute o, he always open the door for me.. I try kacau him , I asked him to lend me his hand for awhile ~
Wa.. can hold his hand for awhile , happy neh ~~~ I compared my hand to his , almost the same size ^^

Then we stand near the entrance, waiting for his parents to come fetch us home... We chat while waiting.. hehe ~ then it starts to rain ...... We ran into car, and there's traffic jam.. I was looking at him in the car .. then fell asleep .. so paiseh nia ... hehehe ... When he wake me up, it is almost reach my home de .. my hair was messy due to sleeping inside car, so I untie my hair better ~ hehe ... So happy today ~~

Muacks ~~~

A Trip To KL With Friends and Teachers

This is the last day lor, we were at Nilai 3 .. There sell textiles one.. we don't have interest with that also.. In the pic, there's 9 people including me, got another 2 don't know go where already.

Putrajaya~

My best friend and me. My fingers look weird ..

Cheez ~~~~

My current wallpaper. I think it's not bad .

Act ghost, although I'm afraid of ghost.

Grr.. don't make me angry !!

A little bit of reflection of KL tower, the camel of AmBank ...


Presenting !! *drum rolls ~~*

Malaysia's Tilting Tower ~~~ hahahaha

Mosque. We changed to casual wear after 'ponteng' at KLCC..

The skies of Kuala Lumpur...

First time to Petrosains~

"Look !! My sharp teeth !! Don't ever come near me like this girl who is taking my picture !!"

View from Planeterium Negara.

Husband & wife rabbits ( I guess ) They are cute, don't they?

Hohoho ~ Me at Pusat Sains Negara

My birthday cake ~ My dad gave me a present, which is .. Give me try to drive a car. With him beside of course ~ haha .. That was fun ~ I managed to make the engine "si huey" a few times ~ keke...

What a day...

Uh... what a tired day......

Today, my add maths teacher din't show up. I'm glad she din't because if she'd came, I'd still doing her homework now !

Next up, physics, we learn about pressure in liquid and atmosphere. Today no bio class also ~~ yipeeeee ~ but then after recess my best friend cry leh.... I tried to pujuk her, but I let her cry, because I know after crying she'll back to normal. I even think that I'm her counselor already ..
I told her, if she doesn't like someone, she should tell that person directly and not keep inside her heart. And also, if someone want to do something that involves her and she doesn't like, she should not challenge that person like "pergi la, saya tak takut! " Instead, she should say it out what she feels, straightfoward. I gave her some examples..

I don't know whether she is listening or not, but I guess she did. After all she feels much better after that. I pujuk her until my mouth dry -.-! Thanks to my bm teacher.. if he din't come, I think she will cry for 1 hour plus .... phew ... !

My chemistry teacher said my whole class is in a critical condition, "dah nazak la".. because hor, he asked us a question, we don't know what's the answer. When he explain to us the answer, he relate to something which he thinks it will make us understand more, but it get worse. I see his face like wanna bang the Great Wall of China already.. hahahahah.. I'll get to him jumping down from KLCC tomorrow. I'm sure. Who ask him to arrange additional class !?!?! hehehe ~~ just kidding...

The funny part is, don't know where he get a towel, he wipe his face with that, and then put at table. You know lah, table so dirty one, he use that towel to wipe also afterwards. When he explain that same answer, he had used up all his words already. He use the towel wipe his face, from neck to hair, and then put the towel on his head.. his looked so funny leh that time.. Pity him... he said he never went to training for teaching, he teach us by his own experience. Maybe that's why even he bang the Great Wall of China, jump down from KLCC, also we can't understand, or maybe understand a little little little bit ~~