My violin baby

lalalalalala ~ It's finally over ~ I performed not that bad .. well... it is all the microphone's fault ! Uncle put it too near me and I din't even noticed it. When the music starts, my bow hit the mic and I'm shocked... and I can only continue back after few secs ..

Frankly, it's not in my imagination. I feel sad after I reached home and looking back the video that my papa took. Maybe I have a very high expectations for myself, that's why...

Nevermind, I went to Giant with my papa, and I noticed some colour wolfs keep looking at me.. I don't think I want to wear that for shopping next time ...

Me and my baby ~~~~ If it talks, I wanna say : I love you ~~~ baby ~~

Friday

Yesterday I din't write at all, because I came home from school almost 4 something in the afternoon. Then I rested for awhile, then it's 7 pm already. I have to go to Butterworth for rehearsal/practice my violin.

After I reached there, soon another guy arrives. We practice together first, then later on another girl came. I think we're doing great. After the practice, I get to know that guy's name, where he studies and phone number, but I forgotten to ask the girl one =.=! Haih.. nevermind la...

Just now that guy sms me for my msn, I gave him. I'm happy to have 2 new friends from other schools ^^~ Anyway tomorrow is the day. Just thinking of it makes me nervous, don't know when standing at stage I can perform well, good, not bad or bad..?

Today pj time, almost all from my class wears class t-shirt. Looks cool, although the shirt looks normal =D today is just another normal day, nothing special...

Wednesday

Today is Wednesday, 25th June 2008.

Nine days after my birthday...

I hate Wednesday very much, because it's Hari Badan Beruniform. I hate wearing that stupid black shoes, which makes my foot pain and uncomfortable sometimes and I hate kawad. I hate the heat, I hate that I have nobody to talk to.

Sigh, today add maths class, teacher wants to check our work row by row, but the last row never check. Lucky me, I was sitting on the last row, muahahahahahaha!! Then we discussed about our homework... She explained everything thoroughly to us. Actually this teacher not bad, just a little bit nag-gy. She loved to nag us probably because she have nobody else to nag.. =D just kidding ~

Next, at the physics lab. We moved on to the new chapter, err.... pressure and force.. or something like that. I managed to answer the question correctly =D why is it always so hard when it's in exam....

Surprisingly, there's some exhibition about colleges. My whole class was there. Unfortunately, there's no course for Forensics... I wonder why .. forensic is cool, why no college provide this course wor ... sigh, nevermind. There are all about nursing, engineering, tourism, hotel management, chef ...... I was enjoying the exhibition when suddenly a classmate of mine, said that we must go to biology lab right away, because our bio teacher angry already.

And so we went to bio lab and continue studying. Although she is pregnant but she still can scold us loudly .. we were afraid of her, so we quickly finish our PEKA and pass up. Recess time is in between 2 period of biology... how weird... I quickly eat and then go back into the lab.

Then, it's BM class. So boring.... Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday also got 2 period of BM, everyday see the teacher's face for 1 hour plus, arghhhhhhh ! He gave some homework for us to do and I bet most of the malays already finished it. I will do it tonight .. =P

My chem teacher din't show up, because most of the teachers went for somekind of stupid meeting. But, he managed to find a big periodic table for us. It got all the formula and colourful periodic table. Price tag : RM 2.75

My lunch is 4 pieces of Tiger chocolate biscuit, the left from recess. Not very full but at least I ate something ~ Then all of us stand under the cruel sun for don't know how long, but to me, every second feels like an hour !! Imagine this, black hair, long-sleeve shirt, scarf on neck, long dark blue pants, black leather shoes and under the afternoon 2pm sun. very very the hotttt !

Then we kawad, I made somebody's shoe 'open mouth', and that form 6 guy keep say I deliberately do that one .. grrrr... and after kawad, pengerusi annouced that, we no need to wear full uniform to school anymore ~~~ we can wear scout t-shirts to school ~ weeeeeeeeeeee ~~~~
actually not that happy at all, my friend from PBSM were mad about those lower 6 people. my not-so-close friend at scout also mad about a girl who thinks she is veryyyyy pretty. frankly she looks fat, her face round like a ball =P

I practiced my violin, I think I'm not that bad already ... or maybe not ..? Hmmm........

Violin performing

Today is the same old Saturday, waking up at 10am, wash face, brush teeth, eat breakfast, shower, go to violin class.

I thought it is the same old Saturday but in fact, it's not ! I walk into the room, my teacher told me that next saturday got music performance at Sunway, and she asked me want to take part in it or not. I'm not quite sure I can do it or not, but since I have performed when I was small, I agreed. Tomorrow have another class because I was absent last Saturday. Tomorrow is a replacement but instead, I got a chance to meet my partners, which we will perform together next Saturday. We will practice together tomorrow ~~~~ I'm looking foward to it... I hope I won't be afraid when at stage...

Thinking back when I was Form 2, my crazy teacher asked me to take part in the story telling competition. When at stage, my arms and legs shake so terribly, and I talk too soft until the speaker got no sound come out... hahaha ~~ I think they were laughing at me down there. How sad ....

But nevermind, I'll post some photos of mine at KL.

sad things

All the sad things happened. Well, not all, but .. sigh... don't know how to say...

Got 2 sad things altogether. My uncle .. he .. passed away at saturday. I went to Tambun, but I don't dare to watch him on his face. Not because I did something wrong to him, it's just I'm afraid to see a corpse .. Don't know why .. *sigh* I hope uncle won't mad at me for not looking at him for the last time.....

Another is, maybe it's a good one, maybe it's a bad one... that is ...

I finally confronted him. I asked him the question that I wanted to ask him, and he replied the answer as I expected as well. I know, the problem is on me. I'm too stupid and I'm just too young to involve in relationships ( or that's what elders said ), I need to focus on my studies... I have my target, and it's hard for me, but I'm sure I can do it !

He said he still can't get over with his ex... but likes me too .. I don't know what to do.. But I think I'm doing the right thing, isn't it. This way, I can focus on my studies and I won't headache over these relationships problems.

As time passes, feeling passes too.

~Amelyn~*